should i stop writing here everyday?

work wasn't hard today
i didn't count every minute
in evening went with Ann for a walk
it rained all day so it was wet everywhere
we sat near some school, drank beer, smoked and talked about Salinger and Agatha Christie
then went to Yana's place
she is so foolish with her feelings
but she is very funny indeed
she is a good girl, too soft though
i haven't talked to him today
i haven't payed my telephone bill so i can't message him or call
i'm making steps over myself

who cares anyway?
tomorrow i'll go and get drunk

what a waster

they gonna switch the internet off soon cuz i havent payed for last month yet
on one hand its a good thing
maybe ill finish reading Anna Karenina which i started the last time the internet was out
yeah, i used to read a lot, but recently i'm just sitting in front of my laptop when im out of work
and yeah, hang out with friends. anyway, not very useful time spending
i should say, wasting it, for the most part

but hell yeah, i like the summer because its beautiful.
i like sun and fields.
i like grass and wind.

i wish we had the sea here

reflection i'm tired to see

i hate this feeling of being alike with her.
but today i read her new post, and thought that its not our resemblance.
maybe its just mankind's resemblance.
maybe there are hundreds of people that feel exactly the same.
i mean exactly. to 90 percent. maximum 95. more is not possible for anyone.
its hard to explain what i mean.
yeah, i know all people are alike.
but some are more to a particular degree.
feelings vary. and resemble at the same time.

i guess i'm just a silly little girl
and i know the truth but i'm trying to hide it from myself
so that i will not have a chance to acknowledge myself as a fool

p.s. i stopped expressing my thoughts on my page on vkontakte.ru cuz people either ignore it or react in a way that just irritates me or makes me sad
sometimes i even dont need reaction at all
i just need to express myself
also friends always spoil it for some reason
people i dont know usually are more adequate

little work never hurt anyone. a lot of kills.
every employer must put this printed in big letters on the wall of his office

anyway this weekend wasnt so bad as i expected it to be
thought it to be lonely and boring to death
but it was all about sun and grass
hot and smelled like clover
it was about wind in the hair and warm brown world watched through the sunglasses
about new ways and waves and inspiration
not bad. not bad at all.
hoping week of work will not spoil it

lets get it started

well, should i say hello?
i've never liked long introductions and stuff like that
so i'm just opening my blog